Yet Another Existential Crisis? Please..

An existential crisis is a crisis of meaning and purpose for an individual. It's roots come from the philosophies of Kierkegaard, Sartre among others. I have been through several of these in my lifetime. "Man is free yet everywhere he is in chains" unknown author. The idea that with extreme freedom and choice one is overwhelmed by this responsibility causing a state of dread and fear of death. I only have one life what the hell do I do with it? Which career to take, which relationship to be in, where to live, what to spend my time doing, and leaving a mark on the world or just along for the ride. All of these concerns come with existential choice.

I thought I had it figured out in my teens. First it was to be a famous politician known for doing great things to help people. This lead to studying Political Science at Rutgers University (along with a minor in Philosophy). Then came the disillusionment with politics and all its nastiness and the idea of becoming a lawyer no longer sat well with me. I loved learning about law and politics but did not want a career in that competitive cut-throat world.

Then came the hotel and travel industry for 4 years. I found myself in being in other places. I had a great job as a quasi meeting planner/tour guide/trip coordinator and I travelled the world literally. It was a great time and I learned so much. But it was not enough for me. I craved more and had been reading Entrepreneur magazine in my spare time. I dove into Wall Street for a chance to prove my mettle at running a business and with hopes of riches like any other young aspiring stockbroker. 12 years later I find myself confused, lost, afraid and unsure of what to do next in my life's journey. The late 30's existential crisis. It's not a midlife crisis, I'm not going to go out and buy a Harley or convertible..it's more troubling and unsettling. To not know what to become or do, amidst The Great Recession, a horrible job market.

I have been soul searching for several years about what I want to become on the career front. I've considered such disparate choices as inner city school teacher, social worker/therapist, nurse, pharmacy tech, bookstore clerk, getting a Masters in Political Science and teaching, doing Compliance work in the securities industry, truck driving and last but not least hotel management.
I've drawn t chart comparisons, pro/con lists, taken online career tests, personality tests, etc. I am still confused and don't know what to do. The clock is ticking, I am not growing any younger, my bank account is slipping, the competition for jobs is thickening and this confusion is not helping my self-esteem.

God, please provide me with guidance and direction as to what career path will lead to the most happiness and contribution to society of my talents. Please do it soon! Oh, and when you find this perfect job please let me get it.

Thank you. Amen. Praise Jah. Peace about.